April 6, 2020

Pure Selfishness, with foresight

Magick without tears, ch. Selfishness

Selfishness? I am glad to find you worrying that bone, for it has plenty of meat on it; fine juicy meat, none of your Chilled Argentine or Canterbury lamb. It is a pelvis, what's more; for in a way the whole structure of the ethics of Thelema is founded upon it.
There is some danger here; for the question is a booby trap for the noble, the generous, the high-minded.

'Selflessness', the great characteristic of the Master of the Temple, the very quintessence of his attainment, is not its contradictory, or even its contrary; it is perfectly compatible (nay, shall we say friendly?) with it.

The Book of the Law has plenty to say on this subject, and it does not mince its words. AL,11: 18, 19, 20, 21:

These are dead, these fellows; they feel not. We are not fo r the poor and the sad: the lords of the earth are our kinsfolk.
Is a God to live in a dog? No! but the highest are of us. They shall rejoice, our chosen; who sorroweth is not of us.
Beauty and strength, leaping laughter and delicious /anguour, fo rce and fire, are of us.
We  have  nothing  with  the  outcast  and  the  unfit:  let them  die  in  their  misery.  For  they  feel  not. Compassion  is  the  vice  of  Kings:  stamp  down  the wretched  and  the  weak;  this  is  the  law  of  the  strong: this  is  our  law  and  the  joy  of the  world.

That  sets  up  a  standard,  with  a  vengeance! (Note  "they  feel  not,"  twice  repeated.  There  should  be something  important  to  the  thesis herein  concealed.)

The  passage  becomes  exalted,  but  a  verse  later  resumes  the theme,  setting  forth  the  philosophical  basis  of  these apparently  violent  and  arrogant  remarks. "It  is  a  lie,  this  folly  against  self."  (A L.  II:  22)

This  is  the  central  doctrine  of  Thelema  in  this  matter. What  are  we  to  understand  by  it?  That  this  imbecile  and nauseating  cult  of  weakness-democracy  some  call  it-is utterly  false  and  vile.

Let  us  look  into  the  matter.  (First  consult  AL.  II:  24,  25, 48,  49,  58,  59,  and  III:  18,  58,  59.  It  might  be  confusing  to quote  these  texts  in  full;  but  they  throw  much  further  light on  the  subject.)
The  word  "compassion"  in  its  accepted sense-which  is  bad  etymology-implies  that  you  are  a  fine fellow,  and  the  other  so  much  dirt;  that  is,  you  insult  him  by pity  for  his  misfortunes.  But  "Every  man  and  every  woman  is a  star";  so  don't  you  do  it!  You  should  treat  everybody  as  a King  of  the  same  order  as  yourself.

Of  course,  nine  people out  of  ten  won't  stand  for  it,  not  for  a  minute;  the  mere  fact of  your  treating  them  decently  frightens  them;  their  sense  of inferiority  is  exacerbated  and  intensified;  they  insist  on grovelling.  That  places  them.  They  force  you  to  treat  them  as the  mongrel  curs  they  are;  and  so  everybody  is  happy!

The  Book  of  the  Law  is  at  pains  to  indicate  the  proper attitude  of  one  "King"  to  another.  When  you  fight  him,  "As brothers,  fight  ye!"  Here  we  have  the  old  chivalrous  type  of warfare,  which  the  introduction  of  reason  into  the  business has  made  at  the  moment  impossible.  Reason  and  Emotion; these  are  the  two  great  enemies  of  the  Ethic  of  Thelema. They  are  the  traditional  obstacles  to  success  in  Yoga  as  well a s  in  Magick.

Now  in  practice,  in  everyday  life,  this  unselfishness  is always  cropping  up.  Not  only  do  you  insult  your  brother King  by  your  "noble  self-sacrifice,"  but  you  are  almost bound  to  interfere  with  his  True  Will.  "Charity"  always means  that  the  lofty  soul  who  bestows  it  is  really,  deep down,  trying  to  enslave  the  recipient  of  his  beastly  bounty!

In  practice,  I  begin  afresh,  it  is  almost  entirely  a  matter  of the  point  of  view.  "That  poor  chap  looks  as  if a  square  meal wouldn't  hurt  him";  and  you  chuck  him  a  half-crown.  You offend  his  pride,  you  pauperize  him,  you  make  a  perfect  cad of  yourself,  and  you  go  off  with  a  glow  of having  done  your good  deed  for  the  day.  It's  all  wrong.  In  such  a  case,  you should  make  it  the  request  for  a  favour.  Say  you're  "dying for  someone  to  talk  to,  and  would  he  care  to  join  you  in  a spot  of  lunch"  at  the  Ritz,  or  wherever  you  feel  that  he  will be  the happiest.

When  you  can  do  this  sort  of  thing  as  it  should  be  done, without  embarrassment,  false  shame,  with  your  whole  heart in  your  words-do  it  simply,  to  sum  up-you  will  find yourself  way  up  on  the  road  to  that  royal  republic  which  is the  ideal  of  human  society.


P.P.P.S.  An  amusing  coincidence.  Just  as  I  was  polishing  up this  letter  the  lady  whom  I  had just  engaged  to  help  me  with some  of  my  work  irritated  me  to  the  point  when  my  screams became  so  heartrending  that  the  village  will  never  sleep  again as  smoothly  as  its  wont.  They  split  the  welkin  in  several places;  and  although  invisible  menders  were  immediately  put on  the  job  it  is  generally  felt  that  it  will  never  more  be  its own  original  wholeness. And  why?  Just  because  of her  anxiety  to  please!  She  asked me  if  she  might  do  somefhing;  I  said  "Yes";  she  then  went  on begging  for  my  consent,  explaining  why  she  had  made  the request,  apologizing  for  her  existence! She  could  not  understand  that  all  she  had  to  do  was  to  try and  please  herself-the  highest  part  of  herself-to  be  assured of  my  full  satisfaction.

P.P.P.P.S.  "But the A:. A:. oath;  aren't  you - we - all out to improve the race, not counting the cost to ourselves?" Pure selfishness, child, with foresight! I want a decent place to live in next time I come back. And a longer choice of first rate vehicles for my Work.

- Magick without tears, ch. Selfishness

January 9, 2020

One Teacher, One Order, One Truth Bullshit

Thelema came knocking on my doors in early 1996. Reflecting upon those first years and seeing how my focus was almost completely directed onto the outer realities (meaning, I was alone, wanting to belong, to be someone and to do something special, etc.), I am glad that I did not align myself with some outer structure (read: social or some other Order.) If I had, I would have just slowed down my growing up process.

Growing up is quite important, in my opinion. In modern terms that would be defined as individualization and self-actualization or breaking out of social, institutional, educational, family influences by becoming, well, a grown-up person, independent and free from bowing down to some authority.

In Thelema lore, this exact process and the resulting grown-up personal traits are mirrored in various texts, in Liber OZ for example.

Observing dynamic situations in the Thelema Orders around the world today, I am particularly intrigued by the notions of the One Holy and True Order, One Teacher, insistence on hierarchy, or shall we say theocracy, covering up or denying that rapes, emotional and mental abuses are taking place, etc.

No, I am not angry, frustrated or appalled by what I am observing, it just doesn't compute:
Is Thelema, one of the most direct and quite loud doctrines out there regarding personal responsibilities and liberties, being squandered by personal ego trips, astral (emotional) glamour and neurotic tendencies by the very same people that are publicly proclaiming: "Do what thou wilt."?

<deep sigh>

And then, of course, we have the childish and immature old-aeon notions and games called: "Please, save me, for I am incapable to progress on my own.".

I am always surprised by what I see here online or in real life and in-person as well: "advanced" aspirants, who have been involved in mystical and magickal practices for decades, a priori and without even bothering to examine which neurotic inner tendency they are being played by, bow down to, and put on a pedestal, some author, lineage "leader", or head of an Order.

Excuse me?!
What the hell?!

Please, Order Leader, save me 

(laughing out loud)

Donating precious life energy to others is what is really happening in such cases, it seems. Instead of looking deeply within and finding what is most alive there (whatever that is, maybe even, god forbid, quite apart from what Order rules state), most human beings look outside…

…and a priori and without ever bothering to really examine what they say and do, follow some authority.

And although the greatest spiritual masters in human history (not only our Master Therion but the Buddha, Krishna, Mohamed, Krishnamurti, etc. as well) have all said to NOT do that, a lot of human beings still meekly bow down to some authority.

Well, in my opinion, that’s just a phase in the process of growing up, nothing more. A little child does that, a real grown-up person doesn’t need to, does she/he.

These are all just little games that egos admire so much, in my opinion. In reality, NO outer authority can initiate you, give you or grant you, well, anything, really. So, what's with the One Teacher, One Order, One Truth notion?

I don't know, but it really does smell to me like total bullshit.

Besides the term 'total bullshit', there is an even better term for these mindless ego-trips: idiot magick.

Idiot Magick

Confusing Babalon with mommy
I guess no one wants to be an idiot, most of us just want to be high-level magicians...

...at the same time, however, knowing all there is to know about someone whom we have never even met in person, the ability to quote sacred texts by heart,
performing Star Sapphire, Reguli and 25 on a daily basis, drinking morning coffee with obligatory Thoth tarot spread for the day ahead,
evoking Goetia spirits for money
and at the same breath refraining from quitting the dead-end job because of some unfavorite astrological conjunction - basically NOT having a real-life at all...

...and at the same time proudly and meekly following some rules laid down by some head of the Order living thousands of miles away...

...politely and meekly waiting for an invitation to progress along the degrees of the aforementioned True and Sacred Order...

...and honoring some obviously delusional "authority" of the One True Order, hoping that it will bring some progress in the future...

...well, that spells out to me as IDIOT MAGICK.


Who am I and what shall be the sign?

Far beyond childish little games and immature ego-trips of "high degree magicians", might stand this line of thought:

"Any organization, group, or a person claiming a connection to the A.'.A.'. can only connect you to the external and temporal A.'.A.'. 

Connecting with the sempiternal A.'.A.'. is a process of self-initiation and no one in this plane can give that to you. 

Any group claiming to be the A.'.A.'., regardless of how legitimate and how effective it is, can only provide you with the training and resources of the external, temporal A.'.A.'.

Initiation is an internal process between you and the true A.'.A.'. ..."
- Ricardo F.

And to drive the point I am trying to make today right in:

“The Sempiternal A.’.A.’. Order is beyond political and personal human projections, hopes and dreams. Only inner and intimate transpersonal realizations can link one with this Inner Order,
no outside authority can do that. It is a matter of complete freedom of self-regulated spiritual development. There is no ‘One True Lineage’ or ‘One True World Teacher’, for such exclusiveness exists only in the vivid child-like human imagination.”
 - me

What do YOU feel/think?