October 20, 2015

Liber Cheth


A.'. A.'.
Publication in Class A.
N. Fra A.'. A.'.

1. This is the secret of the Holy Graal, that is the sacred vessel of our Lady the Scarlet Woman, Babalon the Mother of Abominations, the bride of Chaos, that rideth upon our Lord the Beast.
2. Thou shalt drain out thy blood that is thy life into the golden cup of her fornication.
3. Thou shalt mingle thy life with the universal life. Thou shalt keep not back one drop.
4. Then shall thy brain be dumb, and thy heart beat no more, and all thy life shall go from thee; and thou shalt be cast out upon the midden, and the birds of the air shall feast upon thy flesh, and thy bones shall whiten in the sun.
5. Then shall the winds gather themselves together, and bear thee up as it were a little heap of dust in a sheet that hath four corners, and they shall give it unto the guardians of the abyss.
6. And because there is no life therein, the guardians of the abyss shall bid the angels of the winds pass by. And the angels shall lay thy dust in the City of the Pyramids, and the name thereof shall be no more. {25}
7. Now therefore that thou mayest achieve this ritual of the Holy Graal, do thou divest thyself of all thy goods.
8. Thou hast wealth; give it unto them that have need thereof, yet no desire toward it.
9. Thou hast health; slay thyself in the fervour of thine abandonment unto Our Lady. Let thy flesh hang loose upon thy bones, and thine eyes glare with thy quenchless lust unto the Infinite, with thy passion for the Unknown, for Her that is beyond Knowledge the accursed one.
10. Thou hast love; tear thy mother from thine heart, and spit in the face of thy father. Let thy foot trample the belly of thy wife, and let the babe at her breast be the prey of dogs and vultures.
11. For if thou dost not this with thy will, then shall We do this despite thy will. So that thou attain to the Sacrament of the Graal in the Chapel of Abominations.
12. And behold! if by stealth thou keep unto thyself one thought of thine, then shalt thou be cast out into the abyss for ever; and thou shalt be the lonely one, the eater of dung, the afflicted in the Day of Be-with-Us.
13. Yea! verily this is the Truth, this is the Truth, this is the Truth. Unto thee shall be granted joy and health and wealth and wisdom when thou art no longer thou.
14. Then shall every gain be a new sacrament, and it shall not defile thee; thou shalt revel with the wanton in the market-place, and the virgins shall fling roses upon thee, and the merchants bend their knees and bring thee gold and spices. Also young boys shall pour wonderful wines for thee, and the singers and the dancers shall sing and dance for thee. {26}
15. Yet shalt thou not be therein, for thou shalt be forgotten, dust lost in dust.
16. Nor shall the aeon itself avail thee in this; for from the dust shall a white ash be prepared by Hermes the Invisible.
17. And this is the wrath of God, that these things should be thus.
18. And this is the grace of God, that these things should be thus.
19. Wherefore I charge you that ye come unto me in the Beginning; for if ye take but one step in this Path, ye must arrive inevitably at the end thereof.
20. This Path is beyond Life and Death; it is also beyond Love; but that ye know not, for ye know not Love.
21. And the end thereof is known not even unto Our Lady or to the Beast whereon She rideth; nor unto the Virgin her daughter nor unto Chaos her lawful Lord; but unto the Crowned Child is it known? It is not known if it be known.
22. Therefore unto Hadit and unto Nuit be the glory in the End and the Beginning; yea, in the End and the Beginning.

May 4, 2015

There is None Else Beside Him

1. There is None Else Beside Him

Ein Od Milvado
The Book of Shamati, Article # 1
I heard on Parashat Yitro, 1, February 6, 1944

It is written, “there is none else besides Him.” This means that there is no other force in the world that has the ability to do anything against Him. And what man sees, that there are things in the world that deny the Higher Household, the reason is that this is His will.

And it is deemed a correction, called “the left rejects and the right adducts,” meaning that which the left rejects is considered correction. This means that there are things in the world, which, to begin with, aim to divert a person from the right way, and by which he is rejected from Sanctity.

And the benefit from the rejections is that through them a person receives a need and a complete desire for the Creator to help him, since he sees that otherwise he is lost. Not only does he not progress in his work, but he sees that he regresses, that is, he lacks the strength to observe Torah and Mitzvot even in Lo Lishma (not for Her Name). That only by genuinely overcoming all the obstacles, above reason, can he observe the Torah and Mitzvot. But he does not always have the strength to overcome above reason; otherwise, he is forced to deviate, God forbid, from the way of the Creator, even from Lo Lishma.

And he, who always feels that the shattered is greater than the whole, meaning that there are many more descents than ascents, and he does not see an end to these states, and he will forever remain outside of holiness, for he sees that it is difficult for him to observe even as little as a jot, unless by overcoming above reason. But he is not always able to overcome. And what shall be the end?

Then he comes to the decision that no one can help him but the Creator Himself. This causes him to make a heartfelt demand that the Creator will open his eyes and heart, and truly bring him nearer to eternal adhesion with God. It thus follows, that all the rejections he had experienced had come from the Creator.

This means that it was not because he was at fault, that he did not have the ability to overcome. Rather, for those people who truly want to draw near the Creator, and so they will not settle for little, meaning remain as senseless children, he is therefore given help from Above, so he will not be able to say that thank God, I have Torah and Mitzvot and good deeds, and what else do I need?

And only if that person has a true desire will he receive help from Above. And he is constantly shown how he is at fault in his present state. Namely, he is sent thoughts and views, which are against the work. This is in order for him to see that he is not one with the Lord. And as much as he overcomes, he always sees how he is farther from holiness than others, who feel that they are one with the Creator.

But he, on the other hand, always has complaints and demands, and he cannot justify the Creator’s behavior, and how He behaves toward him. This pains him. Why is he not one with the Creator? Finally, he comes to feel that he has no part in holiness whatsoever.

Although he occasionally receives awakening from Above, which momentarily revives him, but soon after he falls into the place of baseness. However, this is what causes him to come to realize that only God can help and really bring him closer.

A man must always try and cleave to the Creator; namely, that all his thoughts will be about Him. That is to say, that even if he is in the worst state, from which there cannot be a greater decline, he should not leave His domain, namely, that there is another authority which prevents him from entering holiness, and which can bring benefit or harm.

That is, he must not think that there is the force of the Sitra Achra (Other Side), which does not allow a person to do good deeds and follow God’s ways. Rather, all is done by the Creator.

The Baal Shem Tov said that he who says that there is another force in the world, namely Klipot (shells), that person is in a state of “serving other gods.” It is not necessarily the thought of heresy that is the transgression, but if he thinks that there is another authority and force apart from the Creator, by that he is committing a sin.

Furthermore, he who says that man has his own authority, that is, he says that yesterday he himself did not want to follow God’s ways, that too is considered committing the sin of heresy. Meaning that he does not believe that only the Creator is the leader of the world.

But when he has committed a sin, he must certainly regret it and be sorry for having committed it. But here too we should place the pain and sorrow in the right order: where does he place the cause of the sin, for that is the point that should be regretted.

Then, one should be remorseful and say: “I committed that sin because the Creator hurled me down from holiness to a place of filth, to the lavatory, the place of filth.” That is to say that the Creator gave him a desire and craving to amuse himself and breath air in a place of stench.

(And you might say that it is written in books, that sometimes one comes incarnated as a pig. We should interpret that, as he says, one receives a desire and craving to take liveliness from things he had already determined were litter, but now he wants to receive nourishment from them).

Also, when one feels that now he is in a state of ascent, and feels some good flavor in the work, he must not say: “Now I am in a state that I understand that it is worthwhile to worship the Creator.” Rather he should know that now he was favored by the Creator, hence the Creator brought him closer, and for this reason he now feels good flavor in the work. And he should be careful never to leave the domain of Sanctity, and say that there is another who operates besides the Creator.

(But this means that the matter of being favored by the Creator, or the opposite, does not depend on the person himself, but only on the Creator. And man, with his external mind, cannot comprehend why now the Lord has favored him and afterwards did not.)

Likewise, when he regrets that the Creator does not draw him near, he should also be careful that it would not be concerning himself, meaning that he is remote from the Creator. This is because thus he becomes a receiver for his own benefit, and one who receives is separated. Rather, he should regret the exile of the Shechina (Divinity), meaning that he is causing the sorrow of Divinity.

One should imagine that it is as though a small organ of the person is sore. The pain is nonetheless felt primarily in the mind and in the heart. The heart and the mind, which are the whole of man. And certainly, the sensation of a single organ cannot resemble the sensation of a person’s full stature, where most of the pain is felt.

Likewise is the pain that a person feels when he is remote from the Creator. Since man is but a single organ of the Holy Shechina, for the Holy Shechina is the common soul of Israel, hence, the sensation of a single organ does not resemble the sensation of the pain in general. That is to say that there is sorrow in the Shechina when the organs are detached from her, and she cannot nurture her organs.

(And we should say that this is what our sages said: “When a man regrets, what does Shechina say? ‘It is lighter than my head.’”). By not relating the sorrow of remoteness to oneself, one is spared falling into the trap of the desire to receive for oneself, which is considered separation from holiness.

The same applies when one feels some closeness to holiness, when he feels joy at having been favored by the Creator. Then, too, one must say that one’s joy is primarily because now there is joy Above, within the Holy Shechina, at being able to bring her private organ near her, and that she did not have to send her private organ away.

And one derives joy from being rewarded with pleasing the Shechina. This is in accord with the above calculation that when there is joy for the part, it is only a part of the joy of the whole. Through these calculations he loses his individuality and avoids being trapped by the Sitra Achra, which is the will to receive for his own benefit.

Although, the will to receive is necessary, since this is the whole of man, since anything that exists in a person apart from the will to receive does not belong to the creature, but is attributed to the Creator, but the will to receive pleasure should be corrected to being in order to bestow.

That is to say, the pleasure and joy, which the will to receive takes, should be with the intention that there is contentment Above when the creatures feel pleasure, for this was the purpose of creation – to benefit His creations. And this is called the joy of the Shechina Above.

For this reason, one must seek advice as to how he can bring contentment Above. And certainly, if he receives pleasure, contentment shall be felt Above. Therefore, he yearns to always be in the King’s palace, and to have the ability to play with the King’s treasures. And that will certainly cause contentment Above. It follows that his entire longing should be only for the sake of the Creator.

Reposted from Kabbalah.info web site
Original text >>

April 16, 2015

There is none else beside Him

I have been involved with this particular group of Kabbalists since 2011 now, taking their free courses online, learning a great deal in the process.
Their website is Kabbalah.info.

I distinguish the mystical Qabalah from the let's say, authentic Kabbalah. And in this post, I will focus on the latter one.

Suiting my level of Understanding, the mystical Qabalah gave me a lot, but it was or is the "authentic" tradition that helped me the most. I was guided to it by my spirits and I am grateful for it.

For me, the text "There is none else besides Him" (you can find it here >>) is, after the Crossing of the Abyss, more relevant than ever.

The text deals with the whole methodology of Kabbalah, in detail. There is nothing else one must know to master the Authentic Kabbalah, in my opinion. I could go on and on about the implications of the message in the text, but I will let the videos below speak for themselves.

In the series of the "Kabbalah revealed", there are two parts, and I invite you to watch and then re-watch them both for many many many many many many many many times.

Here we go, part one:

Part two:

March 4, 2015

Attaining the K&C of the HGA

In this article, I want to share my observations about the event that is in Western hermetic tradition called attaining the Knowledge & Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel (K&C of the HGA).

I want to address the specific elements of such attainment and some very important moments in the sadhana of an aspirant that may make a huge difference in the process of attainment.

Therefore, I shall avoid rambling on and on about the history and theory behind the K&C of the HGA concepts. A lot of other texts have been dedicated to that; no need to repeat it here. I will also refrain from conveying my thoughts through complicated symbolism, as there is no need for that either. No more secrets. :)

It is my observation that many sincere and dedicated individuals I have met personally might simply be wasting time and energy with things and rituals that are never ever gonna produce the attainment of the K&C of the HGA. That is the main reason for writing about this rather important topic: hearing and following the inspiration of my own HGA.

Having said that, and on a more personal note, this specific process of attainment is by far the most subjective and individual. Therefore, I invite you to view this text as my subjective reality - my aim is to share, not to educate or teach.

Setting the scene

Attainment of  K&C of the HGA in this context means conscious, real, deep, utterly intimate, and clear awareness of the contact with the transpersonal (meaning transcendental, non-material, and non-elemental) being that is separate (possesses separate identity) from the aspirant and is not her higher self or the soul or atma or paramatma or monada or star, etc...

So, in a way, we can write an occasional looking in the mirror and seeing the HGA right off.

The K&C of HGA in this context, therefore, means the complete non-material and trans-personal state of consciousness where the adept leaves behind his/her mundane and relative personal (material) identifications and fully embraces 'new' and eternal Identity through 'melting' his/her innermost being with the HGA (in intimate exchange of Love or on the wings of Wisdom).

Individuality is inherently present in every single unit of consciousness, and each identity is eternal. Maybe qualitatively speaking, we really are all one with all the Gods and Goddesses, but at the identity level, we are separate. Every man and every woman is a star. So, the HGA is different from the aspirant at all levels of existence (this allows HGA to be within or without, that is, to perceive HGA within us or on the outside). And that's a very good thing, for it allows a love exchange, among other things.

Wasted years?

I have a dear friend whom I have known right from childhood. He is a good friend, and I respect him, but on the other hand, for me, he is a fool (and I usually tell him as much, maybe not in those exact words). He is spending all of his time learning scriptures by heart, performing various elemental, zodiac, and other rituals (he is in O.T.O.), happily (and probably unaware) avoiding facing deeper reality in both his personal and magickal/mystical life. And this has been going on for decades now.

Of course, he is, like many others, I assume, only following the prescribed curriculum of his Order, never questioning its true face value, I guess.

When it comes to the attainment of K&C of the HGA,  there are important things to consider, not just a priori following some instructions, in my experience.

The level that HGA dwells on is NOT material or elemental. HGA is a fully transpersonal being, living and breathing in a different reality from ours. And if we are to make contact with Him/Her, we ought to play by His/Her rules, not by material or elemental or zodiac ones.

Magick without tears, p. 496 shares (emphasis mine):

"But you must remember that your Holy Guardian Angel is not only far more fully instructed than yourself on every point that you can conceive, but you may go so far as to say that it is definitely his work, or part of his work; remembering always that he inhabits a sphere or plane which is entirely different from anything of which you are normally aware."

So, taking the above notions into consideration, my point is that executing planetary, elemental, or zodiac rituals with the hope of attaining the K&C of the HGA can fall short.

In my experience, one really has to raise his awareness ABOVE the planetary, elemental, and zodiac levels, for the transpersonal being dwells therein not. How?

What are you focusing on?

This is very important, I feel: investing energy into material (elemental, or zodiac) rituals may be an obstacle in itself. Our focus determines our reality, and focusing on those non-transpersonal levels is really not so efficient a strategy. Such rituals and practices might change planetary, elemental, and zodiac parts of awareness of the individual, BUT they will NOT help in attaining the K&C of the HGA by themselves.

By studying the Buddhist (or Thelema or any other, for that matter) scriptures, one may become a Ph.D. in Buddhist literature (a very learned individual by all known standards), but it will not produce a Buddha, the Awakened One.
You don't have to earn a Ph.D. in any tradition to attain permanent and truly transpersonal experiences. Quite the opposite. The more one is attached to the material (elemental, and zodiac)  stuff, the harder the advancement.

Look at and invest in impermanent planetary, elemental, and zodiac parts of awareness, and only that is what will be seen. Dreaming instead of awakening:

“Your visions will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. 
Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.” 
- C.G. Jung

Furthermore, I think it was Crowley who said that attaining the K&C of the HGA is the single most important thing in the life of a person. I agree.
So what's the point in focusing on anything else, really?

Think about it, if you will:
The level from which we perceive a problem or a challenge can never be efficiently used to bring forth the solution to that problem/challenge.

So, we can never ever attain something that is beyond our current level of awareness by employing this exact same level of awareness and tools therein.

Granted, the rituals and various methods may help in the process of attaining K&C of the HGA on the intellectual or maybe energy levels, but they WILL NOT produce the attainment itself.
Nothing can.

The attainment of K&C of the HGA is a process that is totally beyond our control. It is quite the same story with intimacy, isn't it? Can you force an orgasm? Can you make it happen using only your effort, your will, right now?

No amount of rituals and any other deeds can ever directly produce such attainment, simply because the attainment of the K&C of the HGA is transpersonal in nature. And that being the case, surrender is needed.

The Being one is trying to attain is beyond elemental, planetary, and zodiac spheres of awareness. S/he is completely and totally transcendental. S/he is trans-personal, above personal. S/he is eternal, whereas all other parts of awareness are impermanent, fleeting, and ever-changing.

And that being the case, the Being that is perfect by itself needs nothing from an aspirant.

The attainment of the K&C of the HGA in hermetic traditions IS the result of unconditional mercy. It is a gift, and it is a huge gift, actually. You can not make it happen. It is impossible to force it. It is the gift of intimate Love.

What then?

So, what to do?
Whatever you want, whatever you like :)

My unsolicited proposition, however, is this:

1. Realize first that your personal efforts alone will produce no real attainment of the K&C of the HGA.

Admit to yourself that you are not at all capable of attaining the K&C of the HGA on your own.
Admit that you actually need help from Above, from the Being you are seeking contact with.

Loosen up the grip upon the material, elemental, and zodiac rituals, let them go. Tune down the (material) efforts a bit, and let go of the control and intellect!

Depend only on the Being you are seeking Union with. Open up and surrender to Him/Her. Forget the darn material rituals and literal knowledge. The intellect can't really help here, not even in a trillion years.

2. Having done the above,
try to notice that there is a need present in you. There is a sort of lacking present in your heart of hearts.

There is a quality present in all of us, some sort of longing, a yearning. Become aware of it. Now, today.
People try to fulfill this inner need by oh so many things on the outside (by magickal rituals, too). Humans have unlimited creativity for distractions, it seems. Waste of time, in my opinion.

Also, try to understand that everything that has been happening in your life (after you have decided to embark on this mystical/magical path, and even before that) is just a way of your HGA trying to bring you closer to Him/Her. So do trust in Him/Her.

This is crucial:
Now open up and set your inner orientation, and your intention to get closer to your HGA. Open your heart and reach out NOT by action but by intention.

Reach out ONLY for the Light, only for Him/Her. Pray to Him/Her, intend for Him/Her to open your eyes and your heart, and bring you closer. Surrender as much as your current state allows you.

Do this frequently.
Realize that everything that is happening in your world is controlled by your HGA. Link every thought you have, every emotion you feel, and every event that occurs in your life to your HGA.

And inflame yourself in setting the intention, inner yearning ONLY for the HGA, ONLY for the Light from WITHIN. In other words, invoke often, not by performing ritualistic drama, but by making a space in your awareness for your HGA, not with some action but with pure Intention.

Do that, and in no time, you shall be brought into direct contact with your HGA. Even combining the above steps with your current practice will yield fast and lasting results.

Intimacy is the key here. Surrendering and opening up to an intimate relationship or love affair with your  HGA is the key.
And that is a gift. It is the one result of a causeless mercy.

To sum up:
"It is the truth that liberates, not your effort to be free."
- J. Krishnamurti

February 3, 2015

Grimorium Verum operation

Grimorium Verum (Latin for True Grimoire or The Grimoire of Truth) is a medieval text that outlines detailed procedures for preparing and evoking powerful (elemental) spirits.

It is an advanced text; it can be paralleled to the illustrious Book of Abramelin.

Various Grimorium Verum editions and books are available. I recommend the one by Jake Stratton-Kent.

Well, I was inspired by my Goddess Kalika to dedicate my time to completing Grimorium Verum evocations (GV operation, as I refer to it).


I read through all the text lots of times, really dedicated my time to trying to comprehend the essence of the text, and I decided to skip the tedious medieval preparation instructions (you will know what I mean when you read the book :) ), knowing that those material deeds and tools may or may not be crucial for the operation. Such preparations accumulate a lot of energy, though, so going through with them may be a good idea. Not me, however. I am not a traditionalist and love to improvise.

I have a lot of experience working with spirits and Goetia evocations, and I employ no tools (circle, triangle, ring, etc...), and it works out very well. Besides, Abramelin's operation is stripped bare of all material tools apart from a consecrated space, wand, and oil. The GV operation can be concluded in similar ways. My Kalika was there with me all of the time.


I followed inner inspiration and commenced the GV operation on Thursday last week; I did it in my office (where I usually perform various magick rituals, Aethyrs visiting, etc...); I consecrated the place with Abramelin oil and drew a circle with my wand around my seat. Pure white energy was pouring out of the wand like a laser beam. I also offered incense to the spirits I was about to evoke...

I also had all the sigils outlined in the book printed on an excellent paper. I intended to request spirits to sign their respective sigil, thus taking an oath of allegiance to me. I understand this to be equal to requesting the spirits from the Abramelin operation to swear on the word squares.

According to the GV, there are three Kings, six Deputies, and various powerful subordinate spirits - all under King LVX Ferre and his emissary, Scirlin.

The debate on the true identity of the powerful spirit Scirlin on the EM (the thread can be viewed here >> - the website is usually offline for some reason) has helped me a lot in understanding the nature of the spirit:


With the above character (according to the GV book) in my left hand, I first evoked Scirlin. I immediately saw a change in the room, and upon my request to see it in human form, I saw a lovely lady. It was Scrilin. I knew that a relationship with her was the key to a successful GV operation, so I took some time to establish a base for a friendly relationship with her. No threats, no "if you don't deliver, I will..." etc..., just clear thoughts and intentions. Initially, she was unwilling to cooperate with me, but the situation changed when I focused on my Devi, Kali. I also kindly let the Emissary know that the incense is also burning in her honor.

From my Tantric practice, I know that most spirits are miserable and covet the elemental energies, which can be offered to them via incense, water, fire, oil or perfume, and flowers or food or stones. According to the Tantric tradition, spirits have no mouth, so they "eat" via the sense of smell.

I also offered her fire (and a powerful perfume later on in my apartment), and she was most pleased.

I moved on with the evocations, starting with the great king, LVX Ferre. 

I will refrain from outlining the details; let's just say that we are "friends" now (GV says that "spirits will offer their service to those that have good relations with them and are 'friends'"; I am paraphrasing here of course).

The relationship with Scirlin and later with LVX Ferre introduced rather intense transpersonal realizations regarding the nature of the spirits.

GV operation completed

To make a long story short, Scirlin was on my side, and spirits listened to her, some slightly intimidated by her, some more rebellious but still willing to cooperate.

They charged their respective sigils (or, as the GV says, they sign the sigils), thus making themselves available.

Just today, I summoned Scirlin and asked her which spirit would be particularly good for my task, and she suggested Elantiel. I summoned him, or she called him over; he was docile and willing to assist me. He even asked some questions. The operation was a total success.

That was it.