March 22, 2018

From beyond the Abyss (lV.)

May ALL adepts attain the City of Pyramids

How to get there, one might wonder.

One way:

"The only correct and adequate mode of the Attainment of Understanding is to shut off and to inhibit the rational mind altogether, thus leaving a Tabula rasa upon which the entirely alien faculty -- de novo and sui generis -- can write its first word.

But then (it will surely be said) what is more unintelligent than this supposed Intelligence? than this formless, even delirious Ecstasy which sweeps away all shapes of thought? No sane man would deny this premiss: but the explanation is that this Ecstasy is (so to say) the throe of Birth of the new faculty. It is surely natural for an observer to be startled, for the moment, by the discovery of a new Universe. Ananda must be mastered manfully, not indulged as a vice in the manner of the Mystic! Samadhi must be clarified by Sila, by the stern virtue of constraint: and then appears the paradox that the new Law of the Mind has "come not to destroy but to fulfil" the old. 
The Understanding takes full cognizance of all that vast material which the Reason was unable to build into any coherent structure. The contradictions have disappeared by absorption; they have been accepted as essential factors in the nature of Truth, which without them were a mere congeries of Facts.

It will be clear from all these considerations that there need be no surprise at this primordial paradox: that Scepticism, absolute in every dimension, is the sole possible basis of true Attainment. All attempts to shirk the issue by appeals to "faith," by mystic transcendental sophistries, or any other spiritual varieties of the Three-Card-Trick, are devoted to the most abject destruction.

One cannot "find the Lady" by any other way than that of the Knight-Errant, of the Great Fool -- the Way of the Eagle in the Air -- whose Sacred Number is the Sacred Zero. Yea also, Naught being All, and All being Pan, the only due address to Godhead is in the dual form

[GRK WRDS (all-devourer, all-begetter)] PAMPHAGE PAGGENETOR.

For all must be destroyed that All may be begotten."

- The Little Essays, Understanding by A. Crowley

March 21, 2018

Just adesh - the Will

Sadashiva avatar

"I am against non-violence that makes a human being a coward. Fight for Truth!
To face life, you must have great courage every day!

Everyone must be courageous, facing the difficulties of life with bravery!
Cowardly people are like dead people!

I want a world of brave and courageous people.

Indeed, those who work hard and are agnostics are more acceptable, 
for a time, then lazy spiritual hypocrites."

"No baba, no baba, just adesh (true Will)"

-- Mahavatar Babaji

March 20, 2018

The Holiest of All Mantras

a ka dua
tuf ur biu
bi a’a chefu
dudu nur af an nuteru

“O High One!
May he be praised!
The one great of Power!
The Spirit great of Dignity, who places fear of himself among the gods!”

Crowley’s paraphrase of the Stele in translation is included in Liber AL vel Legis:

"Unity uttermost showed!
I adore the might of Thy breath,
Supreme and terrible God,
Who makest the gods and death
To tremble before Thee -
I, I adore thee!"
Liber AL III-37

The third glyph on the second line of the front of the Stele of Revealing shows a standing human figure with arm(s) outstretched towards a feather.

Reading from right to left, this glyph is the first of the series that continues through the first glyph of the third line (a horizontal, squibbly line over three flags) and gives us in transliteration, the mantra found in the Gnostic Mass (see text above).

The melody for the chanting of this is proscribed by Crowley in Magick in Theory & Practice.

March 19, 2018

No restriction

"The word of Sin is Restriction. O man! refuse not thy wife, if she will! O lover, if thou wilt, depart! 
There is no bond that can unite the divided but love: all else is a curse. Accursed! Accursed be it to the aeons! Hell." 
- Liber AL, l:41

"Fear not at all; fear neither men nor Fates, nor gods, nor anything. 
Money fear not, nor laughter of the folk folly, nor any other power in heaven or upon the earth or under the earth. 
Nu is your refuge as Hadit your light; 
and I am the strength, force, vigour, of your arms."
- Liber AL, lll:17

"Lift yourselves up, my brothers and sisters of the earth! Put beneath your feet all fears, all qualms, all hesitancies! 
Lift yourselves up! Come forth, free and joyous, by night and day, to do your will; 
for “There is no law beyond Do what thou wilt.” 
Lift yourselves up! Walk forth with us in Light and Life and Love and Liberty,
taking our pleasure as Kings and Queens in Heaven and on Earth.

The sun is arisen; the spectre of the ages has been put to flight. 
“The word of Sin is Restriction,” or as it has been otherwise said on this text: 
That is Sin, to hold thine holy spirit in!

Go on, go on in thy might; and let no man make thee afraid."

- The Law of Liberty

March 18, 2018

The way out

"The word Trance implies a passing beyond: scil., the conditions which oppress. The whole and sole object of all true Magical and Mystical training is to become free from every kind of limitation. Thus, body and mind, in the widest sense, are the obstacles in the Path of the Wise: the paradox, tragic enough as it seems, is that they are also the means of progress. 
How to get rid of them, to pass beyond or to transcend them, is the problem, and this is as strictly practical and scientific as that of eliminating impurities from a gas, or of adroitly using mechanical laws. Here is the inevitable logical flaw in the sorites of the Adept, that he is bound by the very principles which it is his object to overcome: and on him who seeks to discard them arbitrarily they haste to take a terrible revenge!

It is in practice, not in theory, that this difficulty suddenly
disappears. For when we take rational steps to suspend the operation of the rational mind, the inhibition does not result in chaos, but in the apprehension of the Universe by means of a faculty to which the laws of the Reason do not apply; and when, returning to the normal state, we seek to analyse our experience, we find that the description abounds in rational absurdities."
- Little Essays, Trance by A. Crowley

This is very well put indeed, and what is currently alive here is that the most common pitfall on the path to Freedom, denial, and aversion to personal and impermanent emotional/physical parts of human existence, has been, in my case (for the most part) averted by following the Tantric wisdom.

The king of Tantras

The Hevajra Tantra teaches the Union of Skillful Means and Profound Cognition (Wisdom or Emptiness); and states that such union helps achieve the powers known as siddhis.

The text belongs to the higher or Inner Tantras and includes the truly famous quote (the one below) that explains a basic tenet of Tantra in only a few words:

"One must rise by that by which one falls.

By whatever thing the world is bound, by that, the bond is unfastened.

Beings are bound by passion and are released by utilizing passion."

The Tantric reverence towards, and dependence on, women in general (and the yoni in particular), is born out in the following three quotes from the text, as is the intimate nature of most higher and secret rituals:

- At all times, whether washing one’s feet or eating, rinsing the mouth, rubbing the hands, girding the hips with a loincloth, going out, making conversation, walking, standing, in wrath, in laughter; the wise man should always worship and honor the lady.

- Concentrate on the triangle of origination in the midst of space.

- I dwell in the yoni of the female in the form of semen.

There are many paths... and in general, we can say there are:
- a path of renunciation (denial of everything that is not "pure light") - an old and boring path in my view,
- a path of transformation (embracing everything and not denying anything, not even sensual pleasures) - the path of ancient Tantra and the path of the new Aeon: Thelema,
- a path of (instant) liberation (focusing on natural Reality without any drama) - Mahamudra and/or Dzogchen.

So, there are a great many ways out, and the experiences we have are in line with previous aspirations and dispositions...
... and conditioned by current intentions. And when intention is to deny, to push away or 'renounce' (to use a fancy spiritual term), "thereby there cometh hurt." (Liber AL I-22)

"The word of sin is Restriction." (Liber AL I-41)

From beyond the Abyss (lll.)

May ALL adepts attain the City of Pyramids

Thus I have heard:

There is no me; there is no you; there are no forms, skandhas(1) are empty. And yet, nothing else exists apart from me and you; skandhas are imputed upon the ever-(non)-existing Thusness(2), and they appear (not) like clouds from the empty sky.

Trillions of forms are imputed from within upon the Thusness and are non-dual with It. (3)

And one who has attained the Mind-of-no-effort(4), has completed the non-journey, and is joyfully abiding in the Union of No-more-learning(4).

He is utterly indifferent(5) to positive, negative, and neutral states within and without, for he has seen the ultimate truth.

The infinite power seemingly drives him on, and on, and yet, he does nothing, for events are non-arising, non-abiding, ever non-existent, and self-liberated.

He is fully aware of the twelve deceptions(6) that bind those without the Right view.

Having seen through the sphere of neither-perception nor-non-perception (7), nothing binds him, for he is not. And since he is not, object and subject are (not), and everything is as it always has been, is, and forever will be (not), he is free.

He doesn't care at all about anything. And yet, the Love and Compassion is the Word at one with the Light.

Just by being, he is constantly creating the manifested Universe. (8)

What is seen is he in myriad forms, and through these forms, he can be known. (8)

When he looks within, the Universe collapses; when he looks without, he is (in) Love.

And through being (in) Love, he is omnipresent, directing herself and her children.

She can be known only through her powerful presence, for she is darkness in its uttermost transparent sense.

In this no man's land, only the seen can be seen, only the heard can be heard, and there is no one there to say, 'We are one, we are none'. (9)

And yet, her nature is all-embracing, receiving and giving.

She has united with innumerable adepts in the most intimate of ways, for she is the Mother of all the wise ones, the Sacred whore, the Everlasting yoni, the Queen of demons and men and women alike.

There is none else besides Her.


1. Skandhas: aggregates that generate everything in the field of the mind in the broadest sense.

2. Thusness: words lose their meaning here, but he seems to refer to the so-called dharmadhatu, the primordial nothing that is everything. In Liber B vel magi, this is referred to as "...the grade of Ipsissimus the Mystery of Selflessness, also called the Mystery of Pan." (Liber B, 15.)

3. It Seems he is talking about the Heart sutra (forms are empty, emptiness is form, etc.).

4. These two phrases denote final spiritual attainment, the level of Ipsissimus.

5. Nothing touches the madman.

6. He is sharing the doctrine of "dependent origination", twelve links that "produce" duality and suffering/enjoyment on all levels.

7. He has attained the trance nirodha samapatti.

8. "By His Wisdom made He the Worlds; the Word that is God is none other than He." - Liber B, 2

9. No mental identification of being something or someone remains.


March 16, 2018

From beyond the Abyss (ll.)

May ALL adepts attain the City of pyramids

How shall we live in harmony?

"The Aspirant must well understand that it is no paradox to say that the Annihilation of the Ego in the Abyss is the condition of emancipating the true Self, and exalting it to unimaginable heights. So long as one remains "one's self", one is overwhelmed by the Universe; destroy the sense of self, and every event is equally an expression of one's Will, since it's occurrence is the resultant of the concourse of the forces which one recognizes as one's own."     - The Law is for All

Kali and Babalon

Om Krim Kali

"On Kali and Babalon

Babalon and Kali both represent the Forces of Nature that render the dead, through the principles of dissolution and decay into the fertile material for new life, or new potentiality. They are both Goddesses who manifest within time and space - with the time aspect as Kala being particularly important. In this way they both appear at the End of an Age, for the Reclamation of the degeneracy which has taken hold of people and the world. 

Kali unmakes the world of mankind at the end of Her age in the East, the Kali Yuga, while Babalon provides a similar role for the Aeon of Pisces in the West, as related by Her portrayal in Revelations. And then there is the fact that both goddesses are blue - it is Babalon's Daughters and the Scarlet Women and the Women of Spirit who are red."

Quote from: Who or what is Babalon?


All words in this article © 2001, 2016 Templum Babalonis

March 15, 2018

From beyond the Abyss

May ALL adepts attain the City of pyramids

In this series of blogs we shall delve deep into the Supernals, quoting empirical knowledge of true Masters and, hopefully, sharing insights of this Thelemite.

The reality or to be more precise, the perception of reality below the Abyss is always changing: Aeons come and go, bodies and other identities alter and Gods are perceived as something separate, something out there.

Above the Abyss, however, everything is always the same, no drama, no play of Gods; not even Unity is definable.

Todays quote:

"...all the symbols are interchangeable, for each one containeth in itself its own opposite. And this is the great Mystery of the Supernals that are beyond the Abyss. For below the Abyss, contradiction is division; but above the Abyss, contradiction is Unity. And there could be nothing true except by virtue of the contradiction that is contained in itself."
- from the 5th Aethyr in The Vision and the Voice

March 14, 2018


In the Book of Thoth, Crowley introduces us to Heru-Ra-Ha when he comments on the Aeon Tarot card. He wrote:

"Around the top of the card is the body of Nuit, the star-goddess, who is the category of unlimited possibility; her mate is Hadit, the ubiquitous point-of-view, the only philosophically tenable conception of Reality. He is represented by a globe of fire, representing eternal energy; winged, to show his power of Going.

As a result of the marriage of these two, the child Horus is born. He is, however, known under his special name, Heru-Ra-Ha. A double god; his extraverted form is Ra-hoor-khuit; and his passive or introverted form Hoor-pa-kraat. He is also solar in character, and is therefore shown coming forth in golden light."

** ** ** 

In the new Aeon, the one we are in right now (according to Thelema's vision), individuality is essential, as well as personal freedom, assuming responsibility, not hiding behind gods but acting with understanding, wisdom, and light strength.

These are not some guidelines for new Aeon parenting....although I imagine a truly loving parent would undoubtedly want his child to grow along these lines.

In my view, what follows is a direct, albeit veiled in heavy symbolism, description of the stage of consciousness at the end of the Path.
Comments are not needed, for every one of us is alive enough to attain Heruraha.

In Liber 418, in the first Aeither, LIL, 
we can read about Heru-Ra-Ha:

"It is a little child covered with lilies and roses. He is supported by countless myriads of Archangels. The Archangels are all the same colorless brilliance, and every one of them is blind. Below the Archangels again are many, many other legions, and so on far below, so far that the eye cannot pierce. And on his forehead, and on his heart, and in his hand, is the secret sigil of the Beast.

And of all this, the glory is so great that all the spiritual senses fail, and their reflections in the body fail.


This child danceth not, but it is because he is the soul of the two dances, - the right hand and the left hand, and in him, they are one dance, the dance without motion."


I am light, and I am the night, and I am that which is beyond them.

I am speech, and I am silence, and I am that which is beyond them.

I am life, and I am death, and I am that which is beyond them.

I am war, and I am peace, and I am that which is beyond them.

I am weakness, and I am strength, and I am that which is beyond them.

Yet by none of these can man reach up to me. Yet by each of them must man reach up to me."

Joy of the unknown

Looking back, it was always my attachment to already attained insights
and knowledge that de facto kept me from moving onto deeper Reality.

And so, I second J. Krishnamurti's words:

"One is never afraid of the unknown; one is afraid of the known coming to an end."

March 8, 2018

On the Education of Children

Active or top-down perception is how cognitive neuroscience scientifically describes the process 'as above - so below'.

In simple terms (maybe even too simple): human inner depth of insight and mental-emotional orientation conditions how and what is perceived.

So, in a way, how a human being perceives something is always subjective.

And regarding Mr. Crowley, oh boy, things that are usually perceived about him range from purity to downright evil. What that says about the perceiver is an interesting question, isn't it.


...having undergone a lot of formal and also informal education in the areas of human consciousness, being a father, and reading Mr. Crowley's thoughts on the education of children, it is quite impossible for me to view him as someone sinister, dark, or even weird.

Quite the opposite, really. Thoughts below reflect deep insight into child and human nature and are in complete harmony with modern developmental psychology, the latest research by humanistic psychologists, and even systems like NVC or nonviolent communication.

And Crowley wrote this, what, 100 years ago when humanistic descriptive sciences had not even been conceived yet and the best children education was based on (quite ineffective, in my view) punishment - reward approach.

Indeed, Crowley really knew what he was doing.

On a more personal note, as shared above, I have a daughter, she is nine now, my angel. :)
And I have been parenting her according to the thoughts below and/or modern sciences mentioned above.

I am still learning, it surely is a healthy challenge, but all in all, it works :)

Mr. Crowley:

“Each child must develop its own Individuality, and Will, disregarding alien Ideals… Education is assisting a soul to express itself. 

Every child should be presented with all possible problems and allowed to register its own reactions; it should be made to face all contingencies in turn until it overcomes each successfully. Its mind must not be influenced, but only offered all kinds of nourishment. Its innate qualities will enable it to select the food proper to its nature. Respect its individuality! Submit all life for its inspection, without comment…

From infancy children should face facts, unadulterated by explanations. Let them think and act for themselves; let their innate integrity initiate itself! Make them explore all life’s mysteries, overcome all its dangers. Falsity and fear are their only foe-men. 

Let them witness birth, marriage, death; let them hear poetry, philosophy, history; compel apprehension but not its articulate expression. Make them face cliffs, billows, animals, finding their own formula of conquest. Thrust Truth on them tirelessly, careful only to make its range all comprehensive; trust them to use it… 

Let children educate themselves to be themselves. Those who train them to standards cripple and deform them. Alien ideals impose parasitic perversions. Every child is a Sphinx; none knoweth its secret but itself…”

Every child is absolute.
Dare not bias it or bind!
Give the seed fair play to shoot!
At maturity its mind
Shall perfect its proper fruit,
Self-determined, self-designed!”

- abridged 'On the Education of Children' from The Revival of Magick

March 7, 2018

Thelema and reincarnation

In this article, I shall touch upon a rather sensitive topic in Thelema doctrine: reincarnation.

I aim to share certain notions on the subject and to present quite compelling arguments that speak in favor of reincarnation - with one intention in sight: to discover the bottom line truth about reincarnation on our own by direct, intimate insights beyond various scriptural notions.

Who am I

There is an exciting and well-referenced text on a related subject, written by Fr. IAO131 titled 'Death in Thelema'.

Before we move on, let us see some introductory remarks in the said text:

"Thelema does not have a conception of death like that of the Abrahamic religions (Judaism, Christianity, and Islam). There is no notion of a heaven or hell that is beyond this world. There is no notion of Judgment for our moral actions or beliefs. This much is clear to anyone who has performed even a cursory review of the Thelemic literary corpus.

Thelema also does not have a conception of death like that of the Dharmic religions (Hinduism, Buddhism, Jainism, and Sikhism). There is no notion of a desire to escape Samsara, the wheel of birth, death, and rebirth. There is also no notion of reincarnating in order to perfect the soul or achieve enlightenment throughout several lifetimes. This topic has been treated in a previous essay entitled “New Aeon Initiation” and Crowley has written, “The idea of incarnations ‘perfecting’ a thing originally perfect by definition is imbecile.” Thelemites see life and the world of duality as providing the opportunity for the “chance of union” (Liber AL I:29), to experience the joy of “love under will.”
- you can read the whole article here >> (a new page opens up)

Well, in the above text, we can read interesting words by A. Crowley:  “The idea of incarnations ‘perfecting’ a thing originally perfect by definition is imbecile."

This is an interesting assertion for a man who has revealed his past life experiences. We can see that there indeed was a process of perfecting going on:

"We do, however, have information from Crowley’s diaries about his recollections of the half dozen or so prior incarnations during which he struggled with the Adeptus Major Grade. The record develops some interesting points. These can be summarized here only in the briefest way...

By the early 16th century, the being who later would incarnate as Aleister Crowley had attained to the 5=6 Grade of Adeptus Minor. The record then documents an incarnation as Edward Kelley (1555-1595), John Dee’s psychic assistant in bringing forth the Enochian system of magick. Kelley was strongly drawn to magick powers, and so sought to push ahead (prematurely) to 6=5. Furthermore, Kelley apparently did not embrace the new teachings the Enochian angels had conveyed to him, which were, in part, an early disclosure of the Law of Thelema.
As a result of this, he stepped back a grade in his next incarnation where, as a frail and malformed young man (subjected to ill health and abuse), he nonetheless lived a profoundly mystical life, obtaining a very high and pure mystical attainment by age 22.

There then followed two incarnations of failing in his attempt to assimilate the Geburah level of attainment.

First, he was a Russian called Father Ivan, profoundly steeped in magick, but laden with extreme vices, abusive of his magick powers, subject to rages, and author of horrible cruelties – all being extreme imbalances of the Gebu-ran energies.

Following this, he was a Heinrick van Dorn, an incarnation only partially remembered for reasons reportedly involving "some serious magical error connected with the grade of Adeptus Major," an abuse of black magical forces "in an entirely futile way. It is a tale of grimoires and vain evil rites, of pacts at which Satan was mocked, and crimes unworthy even of witches," Crowley wrote. He hanged himself at about age 27.

Following this suicide, he "passed through a dreadfully dark purgation," also described as "a profound horror and gloom." Upon completing this cleansing, he was born as Cagliostro (1748-1795). His karma having been equilibrated by his purgatory, Cagliostro reached a "very full" attainment of the 6=5 Grade. His blind spot in that incarnation, in his celebration of his mighty attainment, appears to have been a failure to see that something entirely Other lay beyond the Second Order – "not knowing or caring about the Abyss above me."

After Cagliostro, he incarnated as Eliphas Levi (1810-1875), who comfortably reattained the Adeptus Major Grade (summarizing his knowledge in The Dogma & Ritual of High Magic), then attaining the 7=4 Grade of Exempt Adept before his death."

- Chapter 10 (6=5 chapter) of The Mystical & Magical System of the A.'.A.'. by James A. E.

When I read the words of Master Therion above, I hear that he is referring to the ultimate identity of human beings, which indeed is perfect in itself.
(I wrote an article on the subject some time ago; see the blog 'After Abyss II.: Changeless reality', here >>)

At the same time, however, that ultimate, changeless reality is not the only reality to consider. And considering human relative nature might be an intelligent thing to do. It is that relative human nature that is being perfected, as is evident from the Master Therion's sequence of incarnations.

A well-researched phenomenon: reincarnation

Leaving the Thelema doctrine aside for the time being, I would like to evoke the lifelong research work done by Ian Stevenson, MD. His field of research was reincarnation.

His detailed and well-documented research results are interesting indeed. It is worth looking into his books, in my opinion, and what he shares therein is that in many documented cases, there was a person A who died. After a certain time, person B was born in a different place and remembered the circumstances of, in some cases, the violent death of person A.

Moreover, the birthmarks of person B affirm and connect with the injuries sustained by person A before dying. There are even death certificates of person A and photographs taken of the birthmarks of person B linking both.

There is a well-documented website, 'Dr. Ian Stevenson's Reincarnation Research', offering a wealth of information on the subject of the non-locality of human consciousness. You can visit the website here >> (a new page opens up)


So, where do all presented notions leave us regarding Thelema doctrine and reincarnation?

Well, as far as reincarnation is concerned, and considering the research results of Ian Stevenson and maybe personal insights into our past, it gets pretty challenging to disregard the whole concept.

And at the same time, with the Thelema as the empirical wisdom of the new Aeon in which the focus is on the continuity of awareness, it might be equally difficult to disregard the notion of "...seeing life and the world of duality as providing the opportunity for the “chance of union” (Liber AL I:29), to experience the joy of “love under will.” . 

The ultimate reality, which is so amply presented in many of the Thelema texts might as well be comprehended as something quite above and untouched by those adepts that have done the Work and have Attained...

...for the rest of us, well, we shall all see what awaits us, won't we.

New to Thelema?

Letting the heavy abstract topics of after Abyss be for a while, here we have a brief general introduction to Thelema and O.T.O.:

March 6, 2018

Nuit and Her feast for the Adepts

“As the dancer whirls, she chants in a strange, slow voice, quickening as she goes: Lo! I gather up every spirit that is pure, and weave him into my vesture of flame. I lick up the lives of men, and their souls sparkle from mine eyes. I am the mighty sorceress, the lust of the spirit. And by my dancing I gather for my mother Nuit the heads of all them that are baptized in the waters of life. I am the lust of the spirit that eateth up the soul of man. I have prepared a feast for the adepts, and they that partake thereof shall see God.”
~ Aleister Crowley, 15th Aethyr of The Vision and the Voice