Growing up is quite important, in my opinion. In modern terms that would be defined as individualization and self-actualization or breaking out of social, institutional, educational, family influences by becoming, well, a grown-up person, independent and free from bowing down to some authority.
In Thelema lore, this exact process and the resulting grown-up personal traits are mirrored in various texts, in Liber OZ for example.
Observing dynamic situations in the Thelema Orders around the world today, I am particularly intrigued by the notions of the One Holy and True Order, One Teacher, insistence on hierarchy, or shall we say theocracy, covering up or denying that rapes, emotional and mental abuses are taking place in the ranks of "the one & holy true order", etc.
No, I am not angry, frustrated or appalled by what I am observing, it just doesn't compute:
Is Thelema, one of the most direct and quite loud doctrines out there regarding personal responsibilities and liberties, being squandered by personal ego trips, astral glamour and neurotic tendencies by the very same people that are proclaiming: "Do what thou wilt."?
And then, of course, we have the childish and immature old-aeon notions and games called: "Please, save me, for I am incapable to progress on my own.".
I am always surprised by what I see here online or in real life and in-person as well: "advanced" Thelemites, who have been involved in mystical and magickal practices for decades, a priori and without even bothering to examine which neurotic inner tendency they are being played by, bow down to, and put on pedestal, some author, lineage "leader", or head of an Order.
What the hell?!
|Please, Order Leader, save me|
(laughing out loud)
Donating precious life energy to others is what is really happening in such cases, it seems. Instead of looking deeply within and finding what is most alive there (whatever that is, maybe even, god forbid, quite apart from what Order rules state), most human beings look outside…
…and a priori and without ever bothering to really examine what they say and do, follow some authority.
And although the greatest spiritual masters in human history (not only our Master Therion but the Buddha, Krishna, Mohamed, Krishnamurti, etc. as well) have all said to NOT do that, a lot of human beings still meekly bow down to some authority.
Well, in my opinion, that’s just a phase in the process of growing up, nothing more. A little child does that, a real grown-up person doesn’t need to, does she/he.
These are all just little games that egos admire so much, in my opinion. In reality, NO outer authority can initiate you, give you or grant you, well, anything, really. So, what's with the One Teacher, One Order, One Truth Bullshit?
I don't know, but it really does smell to me like total bullshit.
Besides the term 'total bullshit', there is an even better term for these mindless ego-trips: idiot magick.
|Confusing Babalon with mommy|
...at the same time, however, knowing all there is to know about someone whom we have never even met in person, the ability to quote sacred texts by heart,
performing Star Sapphire, Reguli and 25 on daily basis, drinking morning coffee with obligatory Thoth tarot spread for the day ahead,
evoking Goetia spirits for money and in the same breath refraining from quitting the dead-end job because of some unfavorite astrological conjunction - basically NOT having a real-life at all...
...and at the same time proudly and meekly following some rules laid down by some head of the Order living thousands of miles away...
...politely and meekly waiting for an invitation to progress along the degrees of the aforementioned True and Sacred Order...
...and honoring some obviously delusional "authority" of the One True Order, hoping that it will bring some progress in the future...
...well, that spells out to me as IDIOT MAGICK.
C'mon. Grow the fuck up.
Who am I and what shall be the sign?
Far beyond childish little games and immature ego-trips of "high degree magicians", might stand this line of thought:
"Any organization, group, or a person claiming a connection to the A.'.A.'. can only connect you to the external and temporal A.'.A.'.
Connecting with the sempiternal A.'.A.'. is a process of self-initiation and no one in this plane can give that to you.
Any group claiming to be the A.'.A.'., regardless of how legitimate and how effective it is, can only provide you with the training and resources of the external, temporal A.'.A.'.
Initiation is an internal process between you and the true A.'.A.'. ..."
- Ricardo F.
And to drive the point I am trying to make today right in:
“The Sempiternal A.’.A.’. Order is beyond political and personal human projections, hopes and dreams. Only inner and intimate transpersonal realizations can link one with this Inner Order,
no outside authority can do that. It is a matter of complete freedom of self-regulated spiritual development. There is no ‘One True Lineage’ or ‘One True World Teacher’, for such exclusiveness exists only in the vivid child-like human imagination.”
What do YOU feel/think (not your Order or Lineage Leader)?