November 10, 2023

On Redemption as a Woman

 

Relating to Reality through the prism of 'shakti' (sacred feminine in Sanskrit) is predominant in various aspects of tantric teachings (Sri Vidya, Kali Tantra, the nondual or Buddhist Yogini Tantras, etc.).

And no, I am not referring to neo-tantric commercial trips in the West, where everything orbits around sex.

There is so much more to encountering, discovering, or engaging with Reality, presently and intimately!

Such an intimate connection with Reality Itself (Goddess, Nuit, Mahamudra, Pure Perfect Presence, ground reality, etc.) can be mirrored in how we relate to the inner aspect and the outer embodiments of 'shakti'.

There is an essay written by our Soror of the A.'.A.'., that addresses important aspects of the subject under discussion:

On Redemption as a Woman, or On Authoritatively Embracing One’s Receptivity

The text offers precious jewels that surpass the fuzzy-little-occult-secret-riddles in the Thelemic community by light years: it is simply about us and our innate nature.


Reposted in entirety from:

https://www.corneliuspublications.com/on-redemption-as-a-woman/


Here we go:


On Redemption as a Woman, or On Authoritatively Embracing One’s Receptivity

by Erica M Cornelius

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law – AL I:40

To denizens of the old Aeon, I, Woman, am wicked. For I am temptress and witch, whore and Kundry. Wielding my sensual flesh and hypnotic wiles I lure unwary men to ruin. Nor do I apologize. For in this Aeon, “the slaves shall serve” and “There is no law beyond “Do what thou wilt.” If a man cannot resist my wiles, I lay him low and he has only himself to blame. I am neither evil nor good, but a force of Nature. I am Woman.

How may I as a Woman understand the magickal formula of the Son’s Redemption of the Daughter, as valid today as in previous times? Doesn’t the word Redemption imply that the nature of Woman is fundamentally flawed and lacking? In a Christian context, the word certainly has been taken to imply that women are uniquely sinful and fallen. And, yes, a Thelemic woman should spit and stomp upon the notion that she is the root of all evil—except, of course, to the extent that that is recognized as a good thing. Everything below the Abyss is dual, and that is just the point.

To Redeem means variously to restore, to buy back through a ransom, to rescue. It is critical to understand that in the Grail legend, Parsival not only redeems Kundry, he thereby redeems himself. Both Man and Woman require redemption. Women are not unique in this. In Christian language, both men and women have been expelled from the Garden of Eden and quest to return. For both men and women exist as such below the Abyss and thus are incomplete. And both men and women are redeemed through this magickal process of Love under Will. “For I am divided for love’s sake, for the chance of union.”

When the two sexes reunite in Crowleyan sex magick, they symbolically realize the Original and Eternal Unity above the Abyss. The only reason the Woman needs redemption by the Man and not the other way around is that she symbolically represents the Earth and he, Heaven. This is not arbitrary, but required by the physical reality of our bodies. We women act as the receptive partner due to the nature of our vehicle. There is no moral value attached. Thus if we find ourselves taking it personally, that only indicates that we have important and promising work to do regarding our karmic baggage. (Remember, you can always pick a male vessel next time around if that’s important to you.)

Our female vehicle is aligned with Earth. To give you an idea, whereas orgasm typically damages the male, for us it’s nothing but good. When we get aroused, including during orgasm, we not only retain the vital Essence or Fool but have the potential to move it to a useful power center through our emotional natures. Our erogenous zones are much more broadly distributed than the male’s. We are multi-orgasmic by nature. Thus in sex magick, we channel Power through our arousal and maintain a proper environment for nurturing the Fool, representing Love in the formula.

By contrast, a man’s penis uniquely endows him with the potential to bring the Fool through from across the Abyss. Although he must learn to carefully control his physical arousal if he is to realize this potential, his proper role is to direct the magickal intent with his Mind, representing Will in the formula.

Again, we women symbolically (i.e. in reality) represent the manifested Universe, Nuit, whereas the male symbolically represents the unmanifested point of consciousness, Hadit. Cooperating in the process of Redemption, Son and Daughter of the Tetragrammaton (Vav and Heh-final) reunite Heaven and Earth as equal partners, realizing the Eternally Unified Father and Mother Above (Yod and Heh).

As Thelemic magicians, males and females are equal though distinct in our roles. As female sex magicians, we must engage our receptive role authoritatively. Each of us serves only our god, never another magician. We can and should reject Crowley’s old Aeonic idea that women exist to be used, as if we were not Stars in our own right. Be wary of even more subtle forms of manipulation and coercion in the name of spiritual development. If you fall for it, he is not in the wrong—you are. Again, “the slaves shall serve”. Never allow another to colonize you regardless of his spiritual attainments or personal assets. “The word of Sin is Restriction.” Your allegiance is to your god alone.

The first test lies in our own flesh. We cannot be redeemed—cannot contribute as equal partners in sex magick—if we are still uncomfortable in our own bodies. As women who have incarnated so early in the Aeon, many of us have as part of our destinies to transmute heavy familial karma related to negative views of women, hatred of the body, and even sexual abuse. Step one is to overcome our personal karma that keeps us either prudish or excessively promiscuous relative to our own Zodiacal archetype. This work can take many years. Don’t be discouraged, for you are bringing the Thelemic current to bear not only upon you as an individual but upon your entire ancestral line. This is difficult and important work. Each one of us is an incarnation of BABALON, and our birthright is to revel in our flesh as living goddesses.

Use your flesh as well when judging a potential Redeemer. He must be able to arouse you and keep you aroused. For a start you must genuinely find him sexually attractive. We are not medieval Catholics buying indulgences. No amount of sexual activity with high magicians, whether fake or real, will ever earn you spiritual rewards just by itself. Of course if servicing repulsive men is your kink, that’s a different story.

But even if a man arouses you one way or another, has he attained the ability to control his arousal so that the central focus for long, long periods—weeks, months, years, and decades—is upon your arousal and not his penis? Any man can claim to be a Thelemic priest. But unless his actions are tipped far, far in the direction of your arousal and away from his pleasure in penetration, he either doesn’t understand Crowleyan sex magick, is incapable of practicing it, or both. Again, whether he is wearing a lounge suit or a loin cloth, scrutinize his behavior very carefully. Of course, all sex magick is for a higher purpose than the personal satisfaction or aggrandizement of either participant. It is for the evolution of humanity. So don’t get selfish and bitchy, but do be choosy.

Of course arousal is a two-way street, and your chief job is to Invoke the Lord. A Woman by her astral nature is actually the active partner in this regard. She is the initiator on the inner planes. Yet because our fundamental external nature is Yin and Restrictive, part of our Work is to control that Foundation. We as women naturally yearn for states we call security, happiness, fulfillment, fidelity, respectability, even normality. We must constantly be on our guard. If we start attempting to coerce, manipulate, change, or control the man in an attempt to get our way we poison the environment. If we start seeking greener pastures in order to meet our personal needs, we risk a calamitous fall. Of course success is your proof. The only law is Do what thou wilt. I can’t tell you what’s right for you. My point here is that a great part of our work is seeing the bigger picture and that sex magick is not for our personal benefit. If you fail to arouse your partner, “another woman shall awake the lust & worship of the Snake.” And Ra Hoor Khut warns, “Let the Scarlet Woman beware! If pity and compassion and tenderness visit her heart; if she leave my work to toy with old sweetnesses; then shall my vengeance be known.” Since all power comes through the Scarlet Woman, she needs to be self-possessed indeed in order to avoid ruin.

Sex magick is not a toy or a lark. It is a serious spiritual path for women demanding careful discrimination in order to avoid colonization on the one hand and terrible sorrows and regrets on the other. There is no shame in admitting it is not for you. If you are so inclined, you can enjoy all the fruits of the Law of Thelema while choosing personal fulfillment on the horizontal plane. That may be your Will. However, for the woman who is wily, intelligent, mature, and utterly committed to serving her god above anyone and anything else, sex magick holds the promise of the Redemption of her lower nature.

Not only do we Women participate equally in sex magick as the Redeemed, but the insights we gain by working the BABALON formula on the Right side of the Tree of Life illuminate this Aeon for all. For the formula we work externally in our own bodies, men work inwardly. Women in this Aeon are thus poised to contribute fundamental magickal knowledge.


Love is the law, love under will. –AL I:57

November 8, 2023

Authentic Kabbalah vs Mystical Qabalah

There is Mystical (Hermetic) Qabalah, and there is Authentic Kabbalah.

While Mystical Qabalah is a mix of pretty much anything a human mind could come up with over the centuries, the authentic Kabbalah has nothing whatsoever to do with anything within a human mind.

I like the Mystical Qabalah, its colourful symbolism, planet influences, chakras, numerical and alphabetical riddles, angels, and imputed meaning to the sephirot on the Tree of Life, mainly because I like to play around with my mind.

However, in 2011, over a decade ago, I came across a video on YouTube titled Kabbalah Revealed.
Tony, the presenter, caught my attention in an instant. I knew he was for real, not some wannabe mystic or magician.

Fast forward to the present day:

I dropped the Mystical Qabalah as it is only mind-blowing (meaning, blowing concepts around in my mind—not enough anymore).

Nowadays, I use it with students who are not yet awake enough to delve into the actual teachings of the Authentic Kabbalah.

The Lineage of the Authentic Kabbalah I refer to here (there is only one Lineage, actually) is a group of non-mystics and non-magicians and certainly non-occultists
dating back over 5000 years.

Their teachings (predominantly for free, online, and in books) are so profound that they put the Mystic or Hermetic Qabalah to shame.

After more than a decade of careful study (meaning, slowly and gradually, as it can get really challenging) of the Authentic Jewish Kabbalah teachings, all I can say is that the Mystic Qabalah is to Authentic Kabbalah what amnesia is to a real-life experience. And I say that with all kindness and no menace.

I started employing the instructions from the book Shamati (I have heard), article #1, 'There is none else besides him,' right after I first heard it. It took a few weeks to get used to the new method.
My bodies (nervous and endocrine systems, cognitive maps in the brain, cell memory, astral and mental bodies, etc.) needed time to adjust to the inflow of pure Light into the central line above reason.

This teaching not only quickened the stabilization of the Adeptus Minor grade and nurtured progression to the Adeptus Major and Adeptus Exemptus grades but also contributed to the painless, smooth, and permanent crossing of the Abyss.

Many of the texts presented on this website elaborate on empirical knowledge supported by the teachings of the authentic Kabbalah.

The Authentic Kabbalah is the fundamental blueprint of Reality above reason, and its premises can effectively be applied to any system of spiritual awakening (Vajrayana and Thelema, in my case).

I do not make any sense to you, I can imagine.
But hey, invest some time and energy and
come and see:





- Fra 418.'.

October 31, 2023

Nuit - Nondual Presence


Beyond the physical universe, above the subtle universe, far removed from the god forms, angels, and enlightened beings, beyond the 'I am presence', above Kether, and superior to the 'visible object of worship':

Nondual Reality, Naked Awareness manifesting:




October 26, 2023

Liber NV



When discussing the nondual Reality, meaning Reality 
beyond the Fool or the One, 
beyond the Word and Magus,
above the 'I am presence', 
above any spiritual and eternal identity, 
beyond all god forms,
above Understanding and Wisdom,
when we examine 'that', we venture deeply into the realm of the Queen of Space, Nuit.

It is that ground Reality that is at the very end, as it were, of initiatory development (or is it?).

There is no need to insist on a religious approach and perceiving Nuit as a Goddess or a Godform. 

It is just the presence, completely transpersonal and ineffable. Whatever I try to say about Her or It, it turns into a lie.

Nevertheless, there is a beautiful holy text dedicated to devotion to Nuit (see also the video below).

In practical terms, what follows are instructions primarely for the winners of Ordeal X (crossing the Abyss) on how to attain nondual samadhi (sambodhi, to be more precise) through magickal steps.

There is an error in the text I should point out. In verse no. 4, the original text says 50/6=0.12,
which is incorrect, of course. 

And since this lovely Liber is not Class A, I took the liberty of altering the numbers in this blog post from 50/6 to 6/50, which does equal 0.12.

Here we go:


Liber NV
sub figura XI
publication in class D

ooo. This is the Book of the Cult of the Infinite Without.

oo. The Aspirant is Hadit. Nuit is the infinite espansion of the Rose; Hadit is the infinite concentration of the Rood (Instruction of V.V.V.V.V.).

o. First let the Aspirant learn in his heart the First Chapter of THE BOOK OF THE LAW (Instruction of V.V.V.V.V).

1. Worship, i.e. identify thyself with, the Khabs, the secret Light within the Heart. Within this again, unextended, is Hadit.
This is the first practice of the Meditation (ccxx,I:6 and 21).

2. Adore and understand the Rim of the Stele of Revealing.

Above, the gemmed azure is
The naked splendor of Nuit;
She bends in ecstasy to kiss
The secret ardours of Hadit

This is the first practice of Intelligence (ccxx, I:14).


3. Avoid any act of choice or discrimination.
This is the first practice of Ethics (ccxx, I:22).


4. Consider the six and fifty that 6/50=0.12.
o the circumference Nuit.
. the center, Hadit.
1 the unity proceeding, Ra-Hoor-Khuit.
2 the world of illusion.


Nuit thus comprehends All in None.
Also 50+6=56=5+6=11, the key to all Rituals.
And 50X6=300, the Spirit of the Child within.
(Note NFic=72, the Shemhamphorash and the Quinaries of the Zodiac, etc.)
This is the second practice of Intelligence (ccxx,I:24,25).

5. The Result of this Practice is the Consciousness of the Continuity of Existence, the Omnipresence of the Body of Nuit.
In other words, the Aspirant is conscious only of the Infinte Universe as a single Being.
This is the first Indication of the Nature of the Result (ccxx,I:26).

6. Meditate upon Nuit as the Continuous One Resolved into None and Two as the phases of her being.
This is the second practice of Meditation (ccxx,I:27).

7. Meditate upon the facts of Samadhi on all planes the liberation of heat in chemistry, joy in natural history, Ananda in religion, when two things join to lose themselves in a third.
This is the third practice of Meditation (ccxx, I:28,29,30).

8. Let the Aspirant pay utmost reverence to the Authority of the A.·.A.·. and follow Its instructions, and let him swear a great Oath of Devotion unto Nuit.
This is the second practice of Ethics (ccxx, I:32).

9. Let the Aspirant beware the slightest exercvise of his will against another being. Thus, lying is a better posture than sitting or standing, as it opposes less resistance to gravitation. Yet his first duty is to the force nearest and most potent; e.g. he may rise to greet a friend.
This is the third practice of Ethics (ccxx, I:41).

10. Let the Aspirant exercise his will without the least consideration for any other being. This direction cannot be understood, much less accomplished, until the previous practice has been perfected.
This is the fourth practice of Ethics (ccxx, I:42,43,44).

11. Let the Aspirant comprehend that these two practices are identical.
This is the third practice of Intelligence (ccxx, I:45).

12. Let the Aspirant live the Life Beautiful and Pleasant. For this freedom hath he won. But let each act, especially of love, be devoted wholly to his true mistress, Nuit.
This is the fifth practice of Ethics (ccxx, I:51,52,61,63).

13. Let the Aspirant yearn toward Nuit under the stars of Night, with a love directed by his Magical Will, not merely proceeding from the heart.
This is the first practice of Magick Art (ccxx, I:57).

14. The Result of this Practice in the subsequent life of the Aspirant is to fill him with unimaginable joys: to give him certainty concerning the nature of the phenomenon called death, to give him peace unalterable, rest, and ecstasy.
This is the second Indication of the Nature of the Result
(ccxx, I:58).

15. Let the Aspirant prepare a perfume of resinous woods and gums, according to his inspiration.
This is the second practice of Magick Art (ccxx, I:59).

16. Let the Aspirant prepare a Pantacle, as follows. Inscribe a circle within a Pentagram, upon a ground square or of such other convenient shape as he may choose. Let the circle be of scarlet, the Pentagram black, the ground royal blue studded with golden stars. Within the circle, at its centre, shall be painted a sigil that shall be revealed to the Aspirant by Nuit herself. And this Pentacle shall serve for a Telesmantic Image, or as an Eidolon, or as a Focus for the mind.
This is the third practice of Magick Art (ccxx, I:60).

17. Let the Aspirant find a lonely place, if possible a place in the Desert of Sand, or if not, a place unfrequented, and without objects to disturb the view. Such are moorlands, fens, the oÿen sea, broad rivers, and open fields. Also, and especially, the summits of mountains. There let him invoke the Goddess as he hath Wisdom and Understanding so to do. But let this Invocation be that of a pure heart, i.e., a heart wholly devoted to Her, and let him remember that it is Hadit Himself in the most secret place thereof that invoketh. Then let this serpent Hadit burst into flame.
This is the fourth practice of Magick Art (ccxx, I:61).

18. Then shall the Aspirant come a little to lie in Her bosom.
This is the third Indication of the Nature of the Result
(ccxx, I:61).

19. Let the Aspirant stand upon the edge of a precipice in act or in imagination. And let him imagine and suffer the fear of falling.
Next let him imagine with this aid that the Earth is falling, and he with it, or he from it; and considering the infinity of space, let him excite the fear within him to the point of ecstasy, so that the most dreadful dream of falling that he hath ever suffered be as nothing in comparison. This is the forth practice of Meditation (Instruction of V.V.V.V.V.).

20. Thus having understood the nature of this Third Indication, let him in his Magick Rite fall from himself into Nuit, or expand into Her, as his imagination may compel him.
And at that moment, desiring earnestly the Kiss of Nuit, let him give one particle of dust, i.e., let Hadit give himself up utterly to Her.
This is the fifth practice of Magick Art (ccxx, I:61).

21. Then shall he lose all in that hour.
This is the fourth Indication of the Nature of the Result.
(ccxx, I:61).

22. Let the Aspirant prepare a lovesong of rapture unto the Goddess, or let him be inspired by Her unto this.
This is the sixth practice of Magick Art (ccxx, I:63).

23. Let the Aspirant be clad in a single robe. An "abbai" of scarlet wrought with gold is most suitable.
This is the seventh practice of Magick Art (ccxx, I:61).

24. Let the Aspirant wear a rich head-dress. A crown of gold adorned with sapphires or diamonds with a royal blue cap of maintenance, or nemmes, is most suitable.
This is the eighth practice of Magick Art (ccxx, I:61).

25. Let the Aspirant wear many jewels such as he may possess.
This is the ninth practice of Magick Art (ccxx, I:61).

26. Let the Aspirant prepare an Elixir or libation as he may have wit to do.
This is the tenth practice of Magick Art (ccxx, I:63).

27. Let the Aspirant invoke, lying supine, his robe spread out as it were a carpet.
This is the eleventh practice of Magick Art (Instruction of V.V.V.V.V.).

28. Summary. Preliminaries.
These are the necessary possessions.

• The Crown or head-dress.

• The Jewels.

• The Pantacle.

• The Robe.

• The Song or Incantation.

• The Place of Invocation.

• The Perfume.

• The Elixir.

29. Summary continued. Preliminaries.
These are the necessary comprehensions.

• The Natures of Nuit and Hadit, and their relation.

• The Mystery of the Individual Will.

30. Summary continued. Preliminaries.
These are the meditations necessary to be accomplished.

• The discovery of Hadit in the Aspirant, and identification with Him.

• The Continuous One.

• The Value of the Equation n + (-n).

• Cremnophobia.

31. Summary continued. Preliminaries.
These are the Ethical Practices to be accomplished.

• Assertion of the Kether-point-of-view.

• Reverence to the Order.

• Abolition of human will.

• Exercise of true will.

• Devotion to Nuit throughout a beautified life.

32. Summary continued. The Actual Rite.

• Retire to desert with crown and other insignia and implements.

• Burn perfume.

• Chant incantation.

• Drink unto Nuit the Elixir.

• Lying supine, with eyes fixed on the stars, practice the sensation of falling into nothingness.

• Being actually within the bosom of Nuit, let Hadit surrender Himself.

33. Summary concluded. The Results.

• Expansion of consciousness to that of the Infinte.

• "Loss of all" the highest mystical attainment.

• True Wisdom and perfect Happiness.




Samadhi?

To support the work on the After Abyss articles on this Blog (and in a forthcoming book), I will share descriptions of the nondual insights.

The nondual here translates to awareness far beyond or above the Abyss after the so-called identity collapse:  the anatta (or anatma, non-self) insight and the cessation experience (nirodha samapatti).

But to get there, let us first examine the authentic Thelema teachings on samadhi in the video below.

I say authentic because when we stray too far to the left-hand side (ego-tripping, as it were), we start to make up things on our own.

There is nothing wrong with that, for sure. In Truth, however, there is no need to invent new things, for Reallity above the Abyss is already perfect.


On a more personal note, great work summing up the original ideas on Samadhi, brother IAO131!




October 22, 2023

In search of the great beast, Tobias Churton interview

Serene unemotional and non-dramatic (meaning, above astral level) position on Crowley and his life and teachings.

It is a refreshing breeze in a storm of idiocracy of wanna-be Thelemites and various occultists, authors, and other armchair experts in magick who can't seem to be able to pull their heads out of astral glamour.

These days, everyone talks about the shortcomings of Crowley, rarely realizing how brilliant he really was. Mr. Churton does seem to understand.

Great work!

I highly recommend Tobias' books as well:

https://tobiaschurton.com/4_books.html





October 13, 2023

Egypt, the land of Ancient Gods

ZOM, ARN, LIL

I was inspired to visit again the summit of the Enochian Aethyrs earlier this month (October 2023) before my travel to Egypt.
I penetrated the veil of ARN after the successful and significant learning process in ZOM.

This visit transpired last week on Thursday early morning, and while most of what took place there is beyond the scope of this blog post, I can share what Pacasna, the second governor in ARN, said to me:

"A danger will loom in Egypt during your visit, but you will not be hurt in any way; you will hardly notice that danger."

We all know about the atrocities that started last weekend in Israel and Gaza (350 km from Cairo), and maybe some understand what has happened here in Egypt. 

My point is that the claircognizant Beings in the Enochian Realms can and do help us spiritually and in everyday life.

Whether the notion that "...you will hardly notice that danger." indicated my lack of focus on impermanent phenomena, my complete confidence in Angel's words, or the song of Heruraha actualizing itself, the fact remains that safety was (still is) a normal state here.


Exploring

After visiting the Egyptian Museum (see photo of Horus below) and other ancient locations, we took some time to explore the Edfu Temple dedicated to Horus.



Horus Statue in the Egyptian Museum



The Edfu Temple is one of the best preserved and truly magnificent. The main protagonists in the most famous celestial family story in Egyptian history are depicted on the walls in incredible detail. 
Beautiful, it really is.



Entrance into the Edfu Temple


There is a room in the right wing of the Temple where I perceived a very familiar presence. It was powerful to the point this body almost fainted. There was also dizziness and an inability to focus.

My mind began to vaguely understand what was happening when our guide described a depiction of the 'Sky Goddess' on the ceiling:
my Nuit was overshadowing the ancient Egyptian god form Nut, it seems...

The entrance into the 'Sky Goddess' room:




Nut, the 'Sky Goddess' room:


Tomorrow, we will explore the Luxor area; my human heart, however, is already fulfilled.