|I may be broke and lone,|
but I AM SPIRITUAL!
Oftentimes we can see how our drive to attain higher grades and degrees on our Path simply overshadows our emotional, physical, financial etc. needs in daily life. We want to advance, we Will it.
And than we have many initiatory and magickal orders that are supposed to be based on the Thelema principles of liberty, life, light, freedom and love. I say 'supposed to be' simply because I don't really see overly emphasized connection there.
Let me explain:
Thelema, as far as I can see, advocates and inspires personal freedom, laughter, joy, power of choice and, of course, the all important Will.
The Law of Liberty (II.) shares on the subject:
"...We are all free, all independent, all shining gloriously, each one a radiant world. Is not that good tidings?..."
Great, ist't it!
And then enters an average magickal practice:
Divination, gematria, astrological aspects, hexagrams, enochian tables, angels, holy libri, lamens, sephirot, tarot spreads, magickal weapons, mystical symbolism, robes, magick rings, pentagrams, crystals etc...etc...
Well, there is a gap, a huge canyon actually (in my observation) between what is required to do in various magickal orders and regarded as valid practice AND what really happens out there in real everyday life.
Too often I see really talented aspirants who have mastered all sorts of intricate magickal formulas and still insist on working a dead end job, staying in dysfunctional relationships, living out of mommy's fridge, driving daddy's car, "experimenting" with heroin or taking other drugs and still rebelling against, well, everything, like a teenager.
I've got no problem with any of that, please, but the questions really beg for answers:
What the hell happened to Liberty, Light, Life and Love?
Where has the Thelema message gotten lost?
What good do my magickal weapons and tools do if I am still rather dishearted and discontented in my everyday life?
I know what I am talking about, for I have been avoiding real life (read: meditating) for the longest time, hoping that my fortune and attainments await me sometime later, someplace else. Oh, was I wrong!
And, what good does my entering into samadhi do if it has no function in my daily life?
Master Therion even shares a warning in 'The magick without tears':
"I must conclude with a warning. So many of these branches of magick are so fascinating that any one of them is liable to take hold of the Magician by the short hair and upset his balance completely."
Lets not close this article on such a low tone; lets conclude these thoughts in an upright Thelema style I really enjoy:
Lift yourselves up, my brothers and sisters of the earth! Put beneath your feet all fears, all qualms, all hesitancies! Lift yourselves up! Come forth, free and joyous, by night and day, to do your will; for “There is no law beyond Do what thou wilt.” Lift yourselves up! Walk forth with us in Light and Life and Love and Liberty, taking our pleasure as Kings and Queens in Heaven and on Earth.
The sun is arisen; the spectre of the ages has been put to flight. “The word of Sin is Restriction,” or as it has been otherwise said on this text: That is Sin, to hold thine holy spirit in!
Go on, go on in thy might; and let no man make thee afraid.
- The Law of Liberty